Been away for a while. Not in the sense that I packed my bucket and spade and headed to the beach, more so that after my heightened mood toward the middle of last month, I inexplicably nosedived in to the worst depression of my life. I reverted back to alcohol, had 3 suicide attempts and wallowed in self pity for the best part of a month.
Thankfully this has now lifted for the time being. I am considering writing a book to see if that could be the outlet I am looking for. Bearing in mind nobody has ever commented on this I have no gauge as to whether my story would be well received. On the other hand it does not matter, will do it for my benefit rather than anyone else's. I do not want money, fame, recognition. I just want to say goodbye to the darkness that haunts my mind and soul forever so that I can live the remainder of my years at peace. Not too much to ask is it?
