Having spent so long wallowing in self loathing and pity at the ever growing pile of crap my life is becoming, I decided today that rather than trying to tackle the issues en mass, I have chosen to pick two or three single issues and seek to resolve them.
Today, for instance, I decided to complete some court papers I have had lingering for a long time and get those served and sent to court. Also, I continued my increasingly farcical search for voluntary work. To not a great deal of success, agreed but I can look in the mirror and try. These two things alone have been part of the make up of my depression for a long time and now they are, for the most part, complete.
Also, I have agreed with myself that I will not decide what to do tomorrow until it arrives, as undoubtedly if I decided now, I would become anxious and ultimately undo any good work done by worrying about them.
It is nearly impossible to for half a man to kill a giant, but by chipping away at him piece by piece, he will become smaller. As the frightening presence which once towered over you and filled you with fear becomes smaller, the confidence in your own abilities increases. If this continues, then over time you will become so confident and assured that you will grow and become the giant.
That was today, how was yours?
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